the first light

comes at night

rainy, gray Saturday

wind blows the water

against its grain

sun shines at sunset


December 19, 2011

All day long the squirrels have been worrying a path in front of the window.
Eyes to the earth and moving cautiously,
the weight of their coats, heavy.
The long path is ice-covered and worries my pace.
Moving cautiously, eyes to the earth
the weight of obligation, heavy
The sidelines and worrisome obligations we acquire
keep us earth bound and lacking in caution for the care of our true gifts.
Assent’s price, heavy.

December 18, 2011


these days before Christmas have taken on the molasses scents and

January slow characteristics of my childhood

after completing snowbanks of work,

I look at the calendar and it’s still the same day

errands and tasks calling to me from every directions,

my mind is taking the long way,

and I think about driving past my childhood home

I wonder if someone is hanging up Christmas stockings at ‘our’ house

I may have embellished this memory, or maybe it only happened only once.

In my story, we would have to go upstairs and find one sock to bring down.

We would find a scrap of paper (off-colored salmon or blue or green, all fading to tan on the edges).

Each name would be printed or scripted in practice cursive best.

Straight pins held the papers to each stocking, and we would hope that there were no holes in the toes

Wishing for extra stretchiness in that sock, but knowing otherwise.

Hopes were as saggy as the acrylic cable knits socks, worn by first one, then each of us over the year.

The elastic was the kind that failed you by the morning pledge, right after Mass and morning prayers every school day.

There was no point of hanging up tights, thinking you’d get twice the amount of off-brand Lifesavers.

It would just be twice the disappointment.

Of course there was no mantle, so where did we hang our orphaned socks?

Maybe from our kitchen chairs, the assigned seats, no doubt.

I can see the table from various seating charts: closest to Dad,

in arm’s reach of his harm’s way, the effort of swatting flies

less than an arm’s length to the sink or the stove or the dish towel drawer.

I’m making it sound worse than it was, no doubt, because tonight,

with few cars on the road as I wind my way to town,

I’m envious of the ones who are upstairs searching for a sock,

and running downstairs to fetch a paper and a crayon.

December 17, 2011


Strength and loyalty


stained-glass window colors

truest blue and deepest scarlet

intensity even in the dusky light


one bell ringing, resonance continues

soft scents of pine, sugar, wood smoke

strength of conviction is loyalty to true self